Graduation Take #2.

Well I graduated from high school this past week:) (:P)
My graduation day started out by signing yearbooks and eating food at UCAS and Seminary,
Then slowly the time approached when I would walk across the stage...
Actually, more slowly than you would think:P
The waiting persisted indefinitely until...TADA, I could finally at least sit down...
Then speeches, musical numbers and a lot more waiting.
Each person's name was read, their selected school and major, plus scholarships earned/received.
But you know...while the information was read, I observed each person would just stand awkwardly on the stage while they waited to receive their well deserved high school diploma.
I knew I didn't want to stand there awkwardly so I started to devise a plan.
As my time approached, my heart was pounding as I was raking my brain for something to do.
Unfortunately my time came too quickly and I robotically walked up the steps to the stage.
The lights were shining in my eyes as I looked out to the audience and then...
"Sydney Ward will attend..."
I had to do something different and fast, I thought. I did not want to be awkward and stand there!
Without even thinking about what I was doing, my hand shot up into the air while the other went to my hip and I did the classic hip-arm pose while smiling the smile that was given to me by my parents.
My heart raced as I held my pose for two seconds and I got a few laughs from the audience.
Everything went blank as my cheeks filled with a deep red and I continued across the stage to receive my diploma.
What had I just done?!
Feeling rather embarrassed as I walked past the administration I got a few high fives from my classmates as I returned to my seat, relieved that this moment had finally past.
The procession of 123 students came to an end. It was over.
The senior class president stood in front of us as we all stood and moved our tassels from the right to left...I was in a daze.
Had this really just happened? Had I finally completed the battle of following curriculum to earn a diploma?
I was in awe as I walked to the back of the ballroom to return my stoles and get my *real* diploma.
I saw my parents waving at me from the back as I finished sliding my diploma into its folder.
Pictures were taken, money and gifts were received from family and then I was leaving.
Hours later after a few post-graduation activities, I drove into the UCAS parking lot and into the AC for the last time...ever.
I knew what I had to do: I had to have fun and enjoy every second I could with my classmates, but how could I when I knew it was all over...?
Nevertheless, the activities happened, food was eaten, prizes were won, and people were hurt.
All night turned out to be what felt like a few short hours as high school officially wrapped up.
I will admit I cried. As hard as I tried not to cry, I couldn't resist and tears came in steady streams sliding down my face as reality slapped me in the face.
High school was over and there was nothing I could do about it.
The never ending roller coaster of life had started and the control man started it without my permission.
It was inevitable of course. It always was.
But where had the past 18 years of my life gone?? How did it already come to this?!
The only place to go from here though is forward. Forward into oblivion.
So while the ride is going, you might as well hold on tight to what you got and enjoy it.
Enjoy the wind, enjoy the ups and down, the spins and drops, everything.
Because what else can you do?

If I Could, Then I Would

Oh mistakes:)
Hint to you all:

DON'T LET YOUR SUBCONSCIOUS TEXT FOR YOU.

It sucks.
Way bad.
Haha, but no matter.

I am loving the weather.
I can just sit on my bed with the window wide open to let some fresh air into my bedroom,
without freezing my butt off:)
I can drive around with my windows down,
I can go to school without a jacket now,
I can start wearing other things besides pants,
((although I already wore skirts a lot before))
And the best thing:
I can get my "feel good" sunshine rays naturally,
versus using my "happy light" ((but it worked well when I used it during winter:)))

I still love cloudy days where the sun doesn't shine,
and the clouds make shapes across the sky as rain is released from them,
and the puddles form everywhere,
but every so often, the sun's bright light,
and clear blue skies, and warmth
can be quite comforting:)

Another thought I had today as I was walking across campus...
I have decided to change "grumpy day" soundtrack.
I usually listen to Pandora when I need fresh music,
and I started today off by listen to my hard music because I wasn't too happy.
But as I was starting to walk to my class,
I decided to make a "LDS Hymns of Worship" station.
Rather than making me remember all of the reasons why I was upset,
making me even more down and angry,
it made me think of things that actually matter.
It made me think of the Savior and how I can turn to him to comfort me,
It made me look around and see others as Children of God
and it made me happy:)

It is now my new favorite way to "de-tox" from things I don't need to worry about it.

Try it. It's great:)

haha. and the part that made me the happiest inside,
I was walking around the hallway with my headphones in,
and no one would have ever guessed that I was listening to church music:)

Perfectionism

Gah!!!
I hate being a perfectionist!!!
I have a perfectly good piece of work and I made a single mistake that is permanent...
It took me around 7-8 hours to get to this point...
But I want to freakin start over just because it isn't right!!!!!!
I HATE GLITTER!!!

Winter Formal Date

Twas a lot of fun:)
Here are a few pictures!!

Me and Shawn
Being awkward with our pink:)

The Group:) All wearing red and black/white
(^^hence the awkward with the pink)

The girls: Me, Jeanenne, Angela, & Morgan

Us playing Games

We went sledding which was a blast!!
I got a lot of bruises to remember it by:)
Then got some hot lava from Sodalicious (amazing by the way)
Got ready at Cole's house and ate yummy Chinese Food:)
Followed by pictures and Apples to Apples and Catch phrase:)
We went to the dance and partied it up like mad men and women!!!
I did get sick and threw up my dinner, but I was able to feel a bit better and dance a tad bit more.
Then came home:)

Such a blast:)
Thanks Shawn Gubler!!!

Yes....Yes I Do

School is now OFFICIALLY OUT.
Booyah.
My math class ended being curved so my C turned into a C+!!
I got to eat scones and play Irish Twister with the best people today!
[what a way to end a school year!]
I gotta hang out with My Senior Brother, we watched iRobot,
But then he left so I hung out with Manuel, Alex, and Randy!
Then these 4 13-14 year old boys were checking me out and taking pictures of me on the bus awkwardly.
AND I finally got my shifts figured out for work and by the end of this week and next week,
(without taxes being deducted) I will have received $221.
I feel quite happy at the moment:)
Today is just....One of those days:)

when nothing goes right....go left

is it just me or does it seem like lately nothing has been going right?!

BAH HUMBUG!!!

So, I officially Lost, lost with a capital L, my Cell Phone.

[which includes all of the pictures I didn't put on the computer, contacts, sounds, everything]

Stupid girl pockets!! You are never deep enough to keep things safe.

And then you find out that all of these people you talk to during school are complete JERKS.

Stupid, stupid, stupid.

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But on the brightside....I got new glasses:):):)

pretty cute huh? haha:)

ya, what a dork of a face:)

Hehe, Well that is my good news!!

Oh yes and I most likely have a job for the summer!!

Come to me money, I WANT you!!!

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Oh yes, and an update about my post yesterday.

Things are better. I talked to that person today.

Things aren't 100%, but they are better than what they were.

I just need to learn how to hold my tongue.

Never again will I say that stuff.

Now wheres a shock collar when I need one;)

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AND one more thing.

Going on Walks at Highland Glenn Park is one of the best adventures ever.

Along with feeding the ducks and watching the sunset.

It is always a good way to release that terrible stress from the day.

It is one of the best things I have decided to do lately.

Cute huh:)

So if you are a very deprived child, and have never fed the ducks...

Go and do it this instant.

It may change your life:):):) Well actually, not really but who cares? Have a good day.

last day.

One more day till Picnik closes for good:(
That is super depressing.....
I loved picnik.
I used it a lot when I was bored or if I wanted to touch up a picuture.
Now I have to use google plus.
Dumb.
I know.
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Today's adventure:
I totally missed both of the buses today on the way to school.
I forgot to give Ethan his breakfast so when I went to go give it to him I took too long.
Darn.
So I had to drive myself to school.
I was only 25 minutes late to my first class.
Not bad right?
Well yes very bad especially when your classes are only 53 minutes long.
But when I walked in they were all laughing cause they were making up stories as to where I was.
They said I invested my money into someplace to get doubles....Whatever that means??
But it was nice 'cause when it was time to come home I got home SO much quicker than I normally do.
No need to wait for the bus today!!
And it was nice 'cause I took Ashley and Tressa along too,
Which they appreciated:)
It was quite an adventure...
haha, just 'cause I was yelling super loud in my car because this dumb train wouldn't move!!!
It stayed right in the way of the road for at least 5 minutes!!!!
SO annoying.
But eh, Whatever:):)

All Things Must Come to an End.

Sometimes I think my friends are just obsessed.
**cough cough** (you know who you are woman:))
Haha. She makes my day a lot though:)
Oh yes. Who wants to have an Anti-Prom party with me:):):):)
Nothing against prom but who really wants to sit at home and be sad that they didn't get asked?
NOT ME!!!!!
We shall have a good ol' grand time!!
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Oh yes.
Saturday was good.
Had my Seven Peaks inteview....
Kinda strange,
It was a group interview......:S
 I hope I did ok, I really kinda want this job!!
And then later Saturday,
Titanic happened. We watched that very scary movie.
Still It was good.
Now I just have to do my homework for tomorrow.
I am such the procrastinator. :):):):)

Greatest Wedding Proposal Ever.

So. Cute.

Please Watch.

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Haha, I hope you all enjoy being on Spring Break:)

I am stuck in school.

Writing papers,

Researching,

All that Jazz.....:)

It actually is quite nice,

But I still get a taste of all of that wonderful sun.

Actually at lunch today.....haha,

I was half in the sun and half not....and Lets just say I only got burned on one side of my body:)

And our lunch is only 25 minutes!!! :):):):)

The joys of the sun...and fair skin (gingers can relate;))

Oh ya!!!

I went on a date with the most amazing Ginger!!!!

We went and saw Divine Comedy at BYU and played wonderful games together:)

And I saw John Carter again on Friday with Ucasians:)

Fun fun!!

Well have a good week:)

I'll post more this week just cause I like to post:)

prom

Oh,
ain't it lovely.
It is that wonderful time of year again.
Girls becoming giddy around their friends when that CERTIAN boy walks by,
boys scratching their heads, coming up with ideas to ask girls with.
Later girls are surprised to find little goodies in their lockers.
Excited they run and tell their friends.
Now they have to decide between not only two but THREE different boys.
...
Oh the joys of Prom season.
don't ya just love it.
I know I don't;)
Silly boys:):):)

Nuisance

PDA.

Public Display of Affection.

Too much is unbearable.

The less, the better--sometimes.

So, Kaitlin and her BF,

Some of the sweetest kids I know.

They are on the "Too Much" end of the spectrum.

We've been eating outside the past few days because it is SO beautiful,

and Lately we've been leaving like...10ish minutes early.

We just can't handle it.

Remember, some of the nicest kids,

just with some of the weird activities.

We still love them.

Please,

If you get into a relationship,

[besides your hubby;)]

Can you keep it down to a small amount?

Thanks.

Sorry if that's rude....:/

Cupcake, Workout, Fun?

Ok,

This is my wonderful neighbor.

Stephanie Carlisle Hammer.

She is such a sweet heart and I LOVE her blog.

Side By Side Survival Guide

It is super cute and her lastest post is about her wedding!!:):):)

You should read it, even if you don't know her:)

Oh yes,

Sabrina brought me a cupcake tonight!

It was good,

but I was in the middle of my workout so she had to watch me before I could eat it.

And I also got to talk to someone on the bus today.

He is an interesting boy.

You know him, but I'm not gonna share;)

I don't talk to him usually, but he is a good child.

Oh ya,

One more thing.

What would you say if I got my hair cut like.....

SUPERSHORT!!!

Would that just be weird?

Hm.

I don't know:)

Adios!!

Recently I've Been Thinking

If everyday could be a Friday,

Man would life be fun.

No homework,

No school,

Just you and whatever you want to do.

I have also decided that boys are just dumb.

They are too chickent to ask girls on dates.

Here are a lot of girls with so much potential for being fun,

yet you deny them the opportunity to show you who they really are.

Stupid boys.

Ask Girls on dates.

Thanks.

And Valentines Day is going to suck again this year.

I hate Single's Awareness day.

I have been single and will stay single probably for a while.

But no,

When you go to school you are reminded how "obscure" you are.

You see all of these lovey-dovey couples everywhere.

They get each other presents,

Hold each other's hands,

Kiss occassionally,

All that Jazz.

Awkward.

But the rest of us are just too cool to have boyfriends/girlfriends right now.

Yep.

That's the truth.

Well have a happy single's awareness day!!

{{unless you're NOT single;)}}

Boys. Mormons. Good Stuff.

Ok!!!!

This is SOOOOO cool!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And it is SO true!!!!!!!!

I wish though....Truely do......

Now watch it.

I really wish guys could be this good.

But alas,

They aren't.....:(

Ten Ways To Get Girls to Like You

Oh baby!!!!

This is SO true!!!

Wow.

Lots of good videos!!!

Oh ya!

Guess what.

I *almost* got hit with a snowball today......

Zac was going to hit ME first,

But then Eric came up right next to me and started talking to me,

So he hit Eric instead, but then told me to go back and walk again

--just do he could hit me!!!!!!

Wow,

Nice boys huh??!!

But they are pretty spiffy too.

You gotta love UCAS:):):):)

Awkward?

So I was texting Roo,

[for those of you who know who that is]

and They were talking about creepy concepts so I said:

Me: Santa Claus is a weird concept.

 Just think about it, a man sneaks into your house, eats your food,

and he knows when you are asleep and awake

and if you've been bad or good....CREEPY!
Other person that I was talking to:

And that's why he says ho, ho, ho because he reads off the naughty list ;)Wow.

Awkward.

I was also on the bus when they sent that to me,

And I busted out laughing and I got lots of weird stares....

Ya.

AWKWARD!!

my preference experience

Well,
Preference.
Anticipation? HIGH.
Memories? A few.
Pictures? ILLEGAL Pictures:)
Flowers? With pretty little Butterflies!
The dance? It's fun ditching the boys;)
Dinner? Obnoxiously loud:) [With tips]
School Pictures? Creative.....?
Overall? Pretty fun:):)

11:11

Wishes.

They can give everyone hope.

I made two great wishes yesterday.

One in my physics class,

Where we Partied it up!

And the other at Heather's house last night,

where we dance merrily around her firepit

[while squishing marshmellows]

Did either wish come true?

Yes and No.

Will I tell you my wish?

Nope:)

I hope all of your 11:11 wishes will come true.

ugh.

Haha,

After having such a wonderful time eating

DORITOS, and HERSHEY'S,

I got on the Bus with Amanda.

She is my Ucasian Bestie:):)

We were talking when suddenly...

BLOOD!!

Ya, Not too pretty of a sight.

I had to use my sweatshirt as a tissue because,

Well.

Who carries tissues in their back pocket?

Not me:)

But Luckily there was this ever so kind man.

He gave me some tissues:)

Yup,

That's my Story:)

what to do....hmmm

Hmm, no offence to anyone reading this

[you know who you are if you are]

What do you do when the guy you used to like a lot,

turns around and starts liking your BEST friend?

this is the situation that has been placed on my plate of life.

It shouldn't even bother me but it does...

I will just pray and read my scriptures and move on.

But moving on is a very hard thing to do.

I've been trying to move on for the past few months.

And what do I have to show for it...

liking him again after talking/hanging out with him for 2 days.

WHY?!

Oh well, it's my life and I will live it to the fullest

and I WON'T let this get in the way of my happiness.

I am actually quite happy for both of them...:)

even though it kinda hurts on the inside,

I won't let it bug me:)

The Stake Dance last night was EPIC

Thanks Sabrina for making me go to it, I had a great time.

Even though it did have some awkward moments,

mostly dealing with the opposite gender,

Two particular men to be specific.

But it is a night I won't forget:)

For many reasons.

Oh ya and me and Sabrina went to the mall too!!

We were trying to find stuff for my preference dress.

The only things I bought were a purple belt and a ring...

Who knew that accessorizing could be so difficult:(

Oh well:)