They are all smiling and laughing with each other.
Then I look at me and pull a joker:
Why so Serious??I know it's not too big of a deal, but it gets me down...
Seeing everyone so happy and me just being super serious...
I guess I lost a lot of my fun when my Junior year ended.
Plus so many things have happened between my friends, my family, and myself.
I don't know. I cry randomly,
I laugh randomly,
I'm loud and obnoxious one minute, then quiet and reserved the next.
I'm just really confusing.
Someone asked me yesterday if I was okay and it was at a point in time where I was SO done with everything.
I started to cry my eyes out and my make up went everywhere...It was rather funny:)
But it still made me realize that I'm not alone and that I still have friends who care about me,
even if they aren't the people I am hoping would care, they still care nonetheless.
And I guess they make me not be so serious,
They let me "let-loose" if I wanna without judging me.
They remind me that life is worth living and that I shouldn't be so serious all of the time.
I'm trying my hardest to let go and have fun,
but still it shocks me how hard it is sometimes...
