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FAIL #1: NOT CONTROLLING MY FRUSTRATION IN SCHOOL

FAIL #2: BLOOD DONATION TRY #2

FAIL #3: TAKING THE BUS

FAIL #4: NOT TALKING ENOUGH

FAIL #5: MISSING AN IMPORTANT OPPORTUNITY

BASICALLY TODAY HAS BEEN A DAY OF FAILS. THERE ARE MORE OF COURSE BUT I WON'T BORE YOU. HAHA. FRUSTRATIONS!!!!!!!

"Cat And Mouse"

Softly we tremble tonight, 

picture perfect fading smiles are all that's left in sight, 

I said I'd never leave, you'll never change 

I'm not satisfied with where I'm at in life. 

Am I supposed to be happy? 

With all I ever wanted, it comes with a price. 

Am I supposed to be happy? 

With all I ever wanted, it comes with a price. 

You said, you said that you would die for me... 

We made plans to grow old, 

believe me there was truth in all those stories that I told. 

Lost in a simple game cat and mouse,

Are we the same people as before this came to light? 

Am I supposed to be happy? 

with all I ever wanted, it comes with a price. 

Am I supposed to be happy? 

with all I ever wanted, it comes with a price. 

You said, you said that you would die for me... 

You must live for me too'...

For me too...yeah, yeah...

You said that you would die for me... 

Am I supposed to be happy? 

with all I ever wanted, it comes with a price. 

Am I supposed to be happy? 

with all I ever wanted, it comes with a price 

You said, you said that you would die for me...

PMS

Urban Dictionary: a time when you should avoid all women; major mood swings; i.e. watch your back

Haha:) So...You know all the times you cry and cry and cry.

Ya.

I blame it on Mother Nature.

Every time this week/weekend that I've cried,

I blame it on Mother Nature.

Every time I decide not to talk to anyone because I don't "feel" like it,

I blame it on Mother Nature.

All the times I scream and yell for no reason,

I blame it on Mother Nature.

Now you can't blame EVERYTHING on Mother Nature,

But you sure as heck can blame a LOT of things on her!!

>:)

Beware of me:)

How Lovely It Is

People all around.
The one you hope.
Not fully there.
Only half spirit, half heart.
No one really caring it seems.
New thoughts flooding your head.
Whether they be good or bad,
depends on the person.

Driving too fast for the road.
Blasting music, having no care.
Getting trapped in the canyon.
BEST THING.
No one around.
No disturbances.
No nothing.
Just wide open space and your thoughts.

The moment only get ruins when you are rescued.
They take you away from your safe haven.
Having no idea what is has done for you.
What it has done for your insides.

It has been eye-opening.
"A Whole New World" so Aladdin would say.

Although chilled to the bone and feeling lonely,
You still walk through the day,
going through the motions,
smiling for the sake of others.
Being ignored.
Not wanting to do it.
Forcing yourself to talk with people,
Walking yourself through a conversation,
"Now say this Sydney." "Good. Now reply."

Still living happily. Never ceasing to give up.
No matter how easy it may be, NEVER.

Life is Good

Ya know what?

Life is good.

Don't believe me?

Just go look outside. Look at the majestic mountains,

look at the blue sky, the green grass,

the bright sun.

Listen to the wind in the trees, the birds chirping,

neighborhood kids laughing.

Look at your loving family and friends,

your school teachers, church leaders.

The clothes you have on your back,

your cell phone, iPod, TV, computer,

bed.

Life is surprising and will always give you something to be happy about. You just have to look for the good.

Although you may be swamped with work and school,

You just gotta keep your head up,

smile at the little things,

and keep going.

I know it's hard, but we all gotta do it.

TRUST ME.

It's HARD.

But that's why you have everyone around you.

They will help you and you won't feel so alone.

Feeling alone and isolated is a terrible feeling.

If you have ever talked to someone who feels like that,

just be there for them. Nothing else.

Despite how others feel,

you control how you feel and as of right now for me:

Life is good.

Huzzah.

SOOOO.

I keep leaving my dang journal at home so I can't write down my feelings. I've forgotten it the days that I really need it. It is just a good way for me to express my feelings and it helps me not talk about what's going on. I am still trying to break that habit. Yes, it is indeed a habit. It's ok though.

anyway...

Words.

Whether it be good or bad...

I have a tendency to remember the bad.

In order for me to remember the good, I write it down.

If it's in a text format, I save it.

In order for me to remember, I reread these messages over and over again.

I think about it all constantly.

All the time. Pondering, wondering what they meant,

Why they said it.

Ya know. Typical girl thinking...;?

I don't know...Things stay with me for a very long time.