Well...

These days are just blending together...
Today is Wednesday right?
Wow. Crazy!
I feel bad. I forgot to give Beth back her toy:(
Oh ya.
Elisha Graduated today:)
But I had to work.....and I missed it:(
But she is at Boondocks partying it up right now!!
I hope she has a fun time:)
I love my schwester:)

JK :D

Just kidding for my last post.
I love my work:)
Today I gotta work the Cash Register!!
SO MUCH FUN.
Tis all.
That has basically occupied most of my time this past weekend.
Not to mention that Shawn scheduled me to work every day this week beside Friday.
(just 'cause they're cool and aren't opened on Sundays:))
Oh yes.
I do have burns on my arms now.
Just 'cause that lovely grease from the grill shoots up and hits me!
But other than work,
Nothing:)
Wuv you all:)
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Oh ya. It's Riley's sixteenth birthday today:)
Happy Birthday bud:)

Stranger Than You Dreamt It...

Absolutely different than what I was expecting.
Then again it is only the first day.
New people,
New jobs,
New personality?
Completely strange and unexpected.
Very different than from what I had imagined.
But Hey,
I'm not gonna complain.
I am considered very lucky to even have this opportunity.
Oh well.
I just have to endure 6 more hours today.....
:S

Yes....Yes I Do

School is now OFFICIALLY OUT.
Booyah.
My math class ended being curved so my C turned into a C+!!
I got to eat scones and play Irish Twister with the best people today!
[what a way to end a school year!]
I gotta hang out with My Senior Brother, we watched iRobot,
But then he left so I hung out with Manuel, Alex, and Randy!
Then these 4 13-14 year old boys were checking me out and taking pictures of me on the bus awkwardly.
AND I finally got my shifts figured out for work and by the end of this week and next week,
(without taxes being deducted) I will have received $221.
I feel quite happy at the moment:)
Today is just....One of those days:)

Oh Boy.

Found out I failed my Math Final. 110/200:(
I now will receive my first C ever.
I know that's hardly anything to complain about, but it's a big deal to me....
I got all of my papers turned in today,
My Senior Kid showed me what he looked like in Spandex....[Don't ask me why]
I found out that my Physics teacher must really like me or something 'cause he gave me full credit on assignment I didn't really finish.....(Creepy much? JK, He's cool)
I failed my History test too 'cause I was super stupid and I didn't study this weekend.
Instead of doing all of my homework Saturday I hung out with some lovely people:)
I get distracted very easily, and I am annoyed with a lot of people.
Me and Tressa decided that today was one of those, "I want to Kill the World" days!!!
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So story of yesterday.
I hate guys even more.
There's this.....Guy, k?
Here's some background:
His name is Mike.
He is one of those bad boy types who doesn't have a lot of friends.
Well I talk with him a lot and we talk on Facebook a lot.
Following me so far?
Well I got on Facebook yesterday and He asked for my number, so I gave it to him.
he started texting me and getting all cute.....I won't put the whole conversation in but here is a lot of it:
(We started talking about the Eclipse yesterday)
My glasses weren't stron enough I hope my eyes get better. Otherwise I can't look at cute girsl ;)
Oh yes because that is your favorite hobby;)
I practice every day in student success ;)
Oh you look at Gabbie? How cute;)
I'm too lazy to turn my head. Luckily, there's a cute girl right in front of me ;)
Oh:) Thanks:) thats good to know:)
Btw gabbie's only a friend to me. Plus there's cuter girls around ;)
Oh I know. No need to clarify. No wonder why you might leave school next year. With so many girls around how on earth do you concentrate? ;)
Well there's this one girl...And she's really cute... And a really good friend...I might not leave cuz I'll be leaving her...;) I think I might like her... (as more than friends)
[Then I didn't reply for quite a while....then.....]
I mean you.

Ya. Well. Don't know what to say. Yup.....That's un update on my love life.
Nothing special.
See ya!

Bah Humbug.

I SUCK at writing.
Sabrina says I am BORING.
Well that's what I get for writing a RESEARCH paper.
You get BORING.
She doesn't realize that I am a technical writer.
NOT a fun fantastical amazing writer like her.
She just called me mean too.
She is reading this over my shoulder and she says my writing is obnoxious and annoying.
Darn that girl.
She is SO true though.
I am not the BEST writer in the World.
I wish I could just steal the words from her mouth.
BUT NO!!!!!
Because I don't want her vocal chords in my mouth. GROSS.
I WIN. EPIC WINNER. (beat that)
JK. I like this female alot.
She hasn't seen this part yet.

"b-e-a-utiful"

I feel so bad for him.
He has come so far.
He has pushed so hard through the pain.
Yet, he won't let anyone in.
It's very sad.
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It was Treven's birthday yesterday:)
He pitched very good and batted well....AND got a point:)
I hope his arm heals soon.
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I had my first half of my math final today.
I stayed up till 2 studying last night,
Then I took the 7:10 bus this morning to study with Tressa and go into Tutoring.
Plus I got a whole class period to study.
I thought I was prepared.
Sadly, I stared at the test. I was lost.
I took all of the time I could. I was 15 minutes late to class.
Dumb test.
But more to come tomorrow! Huzzah right?!
No.
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He is We-All About Us

hectic day.

At lunch James offered to get me In 'n Out burger, 'cause I've never had it before.

Well. Woke up this morning remembering that I had a project in Physics due.
Luckily I had gotten up at 5:30 to do my hair, so I got out of bed and went to Fresh Market.
At 6 am.You'd be surprised how many people were shopping that early!!
But they didn't have my drink so I went to Heart's instead
and I bought a Mountain Dew Voltage. ((Yummy!!))
And I got my egg all prepared so after I was done drinking it, I could launch it.
But I slept in too late [7:20 to be exact] and I almost missed my bus as usual.
And once I got to school we watched a sad Holocaust movie then my egg cracked...:(
And the container holding the egg broke....which is a bad thing.
Anywho. Things got better after that.
But before he left I just tagged along and sluffed my 4th period class:) Muahaha.
He was sweet and bought me a Burger and a Shake:)
We called it our "Unofficial Date".
Then on the bus.......haha........
Amanda got mad at me so she hit my nose pretty hard and I have always had a sensitive nose so...
I got a bloody nose right at the beginning of the bus ride!!
No one had tissues or anything and when I used a tampon....it started to go down my throat :P!!
So I used my jacket....It got EVERYWHERE!!! and everyone was laughing at me!!
But it ended right before the bus pulled up.
But It was ALL over my face....:( so once again people were laughing.
And I needed to pick food up for Shelby anyway, so Tressa came with me and she watched the workers reaction when they saw all of the blood on my face:) It was Priceless!
then made a cake, Ate food, went to a baseball game, Just the Usual:)
Now I am procrastinating homework that I need to do.
Aren't I clever?
Plus I'm texting Riley and Git....Ya I sorta fail at this Homework thing:)
Oh well:)
G'night!!
I gotta go do homework now :P

What a Weekend

Well.
This has been such an amazing weekend.
Captain America with Jess and Jordan Friday
and Lagoon with my Cousins Saturday:)
AND, Mother's day yesterday!
I love my madre so much:)
She has always been there for me and she always knows what to say.
She is such an amazing woman and I wish we had more days to celebrate her!
Well You can celebrate her any day you want, but I think they should be recognized more often:)
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I decided also that girls are just cool.
We don't need guys to complete us, isn't that right ladies?
Actually, we all just secretly want a man, but we don't necessarily need one.
True? Or am I behind....???
IDK.
I don't really know.
Sometimes I wish I didn't make certain promises.
Sometimes I wish I could have what so many girls have.
Yet at the same time I know I will be better off being single till after high school.
I have seen what the after effects can have on friends.
Guys can come between girls super easily. I have seen it.....A lot.
If you don't believe me, ask my Schwester.
Baha. and This comic:) SO true:)

just what I needed

Just when you feel like you absolutely hate the world,
something great can happen.
I was texting my friend last night when he asked me,
"Do you want to call and read scriptures with me?"
So of course I did.
We read Luke 4 together.
Then we continued to talk about spiritual experiences together and he told me about his conversion story until midnight.
He is such a doll!
But I feel bad because he had to wake up at 4:30 this morning.....
But he completely turned my night around.
I think more guys should be like that. Just saying:)
I think I am going to try to do that with people more often.
I am going to ask people if they would like to read the scriptures with me over the phone.
Because there is always a first for everything.
If you ever want to read with me, Just text me:)
It really does make a difference, so you should try it.
Tis all.
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Haha, now I am in Physics on the computer....
Dumb CRT testing.
Oh well, I got Pandora going and I am writing on my blog, what could be better?
Happy Testing month!!

I know, I know, I know

I know.
You don't need to tell me twice.
I know I don't like talking to people.
I know that I can get on your nerves when I don't want to do what you do.
I know that I just don't connect with you guys anymore.
I just know.
I am seriously trying to move on from what I heard tonight.
I don't appreciate it, and I don't want to have to deal with it.
I know the people I talk to didn't say it, but they still did.
Ya.
Life is hard, then you die.
But you can either go through it trying your hardest, or give up and let people trample you.
It's your choice.
As for me, I am going to try:)
Now time to go and face my so-called "friends" at UCAS......:P
But hey, It's almost summer right? :)

oh dear me....

So I was reading Christopher Glenn Ashcraft's blog and at the bottom it said this, and I quote:

So if you do read this, to prove to me that you read it, make me a peanut butter and jelly sandwich, and smash it in my face.
That way i know that you'll have read the whole thing.

So, I went into my kitchen, made a peanut butter and jelly sandwich and drove over to his house.
Man was he surprised when I smashed it in his face.....I really wish I had taken a picture.
It was quite enjoyable:)
But I did give him a hug afterward. It was totally fine with me.
But beware. If you do challenge me like that, I will usually Most Definitly do it.

<-------Just like Nike says

Couldn't have said it better myself.

Baha.

Yes, I am kinda a strange child:)

Ya....I like putting pictures on.

Can You tell?

(And Man does that Sandwich look good!!!)

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Oh yes. Also on Saturday,

I saw the wonderful amazing movie of the Avengers.

I have now been converted from Captian America to.......

Hawkeye.

He is this super attractive man who can shoot a bow and arrow.

I sorta, kinda like to shoot arrows and that just made him 100x more attractive.

This is also what he looks like:)

Nice Huh?????

AHH!! he is SO good in the movie.

Plus he is going to be in the new Bourne Legacy movie.

Such a good match:):):):):):)

If You haven't seen the Avengers, You should see it:)

Tis All for now:)

“We are all failures- at least the best of us are.”

What Matters Most.
This Woman hit it dead on.
I love this girl so much:)
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I am at school once again. I got done with that dumb English testing in 20 minutes.
Wow. It was so short and quite easy.
You all know. You have to take it too.
So this weekend has really gotten me thinking.
Not like a deep, this-is-going-to-change-my-life kind of thinking,
Just the usual. hmm-why-didn't-I-think-of-this-before type of thinking.
WHY DOES ANYTHING MATTER?!
Crushes move away or move on,
Some friends you will lose,
School is an absolute bore,
And Cell phones can be a BIG waste of time.
I was texting one of my friends, Fish. (nickname)
and I was asking him why he texts people.
He replied with a simple, "Because I like to have conversations."
In the back of my head I was thinking,
What the crap. If you want to have a conversation, TALK to them.
He simply texts a bunch of people to feel cool.
You don't have to base your life off of how many people you text and talk to.
It is SO not worth it.
You are worth so much more than the people that you talk to.
Same thing with friends.
Sure they are great in the moment but if you don't create bonds beyond texting,
You will never survive past high school.
It's just a fact of life.
Texting just drives me up the wall.
And since I got Shelby's old phone and it takes me forever to text on it,
I haven't been texting as much and let me tell you that it has saved me so much time.
I have been able to do so much more.
No back to the point of this post.
We are all just living our lives through high school pretending that everything is super Dandy,
When in most of our realities, IT'S NOT.
And Why poeple make such a big deal out of drama.....No Idea.
Ya, not I'm just rambling.
Hope you have a good day.
And life does matter, but you have to make sure you focus your time on your prioritys, not drama and wasteful things. Because frankly, it's not worth it.
That is all.

tears are words the heart can't say

Why?
Why on earth do some people seriously not have hearts?

some times I wish it was this easy.
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If it was, the world would be a simpler place.
It is time for story time:

once upon a time there was a girl. she went to a great school where she met great people and she loved them. Then one day she had to leave them to find new friends. It was hard at first but she tried to stay close with her past friends. she thought she was doing pretty good with keeping up with them. she put things together and went to parties that they were hosting. then when guys and girls started to get mixed up, things got complicated. she had to say things to guys that she would never had wanted to say. she was slowing turning the heat up on the boiler. then one night when these friends were bored, they called people trying to convince them to hang out. and thats when it happened. a guy turned into a sudden jerk and called the girl on things she was saying. the girl apologized quickly and ended the conversation quickly as well. it had ruined her whole mood for the rest of the night. she went off by herself thinking about all of the things she had done recently, only to find negative. as she was on her way home from being "out with the guys", she decided to get up the courage to apologize to *certain* people. she didn't want to though, because it was 10:30, but she was feeling terrible. she dialed the number of the person she intended to call and was shocked to find the person awake (she had been expecting voice mail). to her horror, they sounded even more angry than before. when she started in on her apology she could tell that the person was rolling their eyes. their only response was, "oh, it's fine. don't worry about it. it was nothing. whatever." it was said in one of the rudest fashions. the girl quickly hung up and began to cry. how could someone be so heartless and knock someone down who had enough courage to do something as hard as that. the girl then decided she would not talk this person for the next while and let them live in their life of saddness. until she has enough courage to confront the person again.

If you are ever put into a situation like this, do not be a jerk.
You have no idea how hard it is for a person to apologize to another.

It is human nature to feel like you are always right.

You have to get past your pride and accept it.

Don't ever make a person cry over an apology that you didn't accept.

It is not good for either of you.

I don't care if they wake you up in the middle of the night,

accept it and don't question it.

And especially DON'T throw it back in their face.

Thank you.

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And this is how I basically feel at this point.

how much longer we must travel

Can you believe it?!
I only have 14 days left of school!!
That's right!!
I get out of school May 24.
You know how I am feeling?!
SUPER excited.
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An update from yesterday.

I Got the job for Trafalga in Lehi.

Do you know how relieved I am? Quite actually.

When I was getting interviewed, she told me I would most likely be hired.
And It was great!!
Luckily I had just restored my phone from its temporary "hibernation".
I had literally just barely activated my phone when they called.
Too bad I actually didn't answer....
But I listened to the voice mail:)
So if you happen to be bored during the summer and need a place to chill,
Come and see me at Traflaga where it is super fun and most of the workers are ATTRACTIVE!!!
Well, in my opinion they are.:):):):) I am SO excited:)
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Well, have fun during finals month and study hard:)
Love ya!!

when nothing goes right....go left

is it just me or does it seem like lately nothing has been going right?!

BAH HUMBUG!!!

So, I officially Lost, lost with a capital L, my Cell Phone.

[which includes all of the pictures I didn't put on the computer, contacts, sounds, everything]

Stupid girl pockets!! You are never deep enough to keep things safe.

And then you find out that all of these people you talk to during school are complete JERKS.

Stupid, stupid, stupid.

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But on the brightside....I got new glasses:):):)

pretty cute huh? haha:)

ya, what a dork of a face:)

Hehe, Well that is my good news!!

Oh yes and I most likely have a job for the summer!!

Come to me money, I WANT you!!!

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Oh yes, and an update about my post yesterday.

Things are better. I talked to that person today.

Things aren't 100%, but they are better than what they were.

I just need to learn how to hold my tongue.

Never again will I say that stuff.

Now wheres a shock collar when I need one;)

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AND one more thing.

Going on Walks at Highland Glenn Park is one of the best adventures ever.

Along with feeding the ducks and watching the sunset.

It is always a good way to release that terrible stress from the day.

It is one of the best things I have decided to do lately.

Cute huh:)

So if you are a very deprived child, and have never fed the ducks...

Go and do it this instant.

It may change your life:):):) Well actually, not really but who cares? Have a good day.

Then What....

Sometimes I need to learn to keep my mouth shut.
I am losing a very good friend.
I apologize a lot.
But they are getting annoyed with me.
You don't realize how mean you are until it starts to affect you.
I hate myself for that.
I am truly a rude person.
I am not blaming anyone but myself.
Argh.
After this blows over, then what's going to become of it?
Yup.
That's basically all.
My friends call me names,
I apparently flirt too much,
I talk to much to some people and ignore other people too much,
I don't do well enough on assignments,
It just sucks.
I am a klutz,
I lose my phone constantly,
I have hair that just doesn't look good all of the time,
Everything apparently.
Oh well. It's all because of me.
I will work on it.
For now....Listen to this: She Will Be Loved