Perfectionism

Gah!!!
I hate being a perfectionist!!!
I have a perfectly good piece of work and I made a single mistake that is permanent...
It took me around 7-8 hours to get to this point...
But I want to freakin start over just because it isn't right!!!!!!
I HATE GLITTER!!!

I know, I know, I know

I know.
You don't need to tell me twice.
I know I don't like talking to people.
I know that I can get on your nerves when I don't want to do what you do.
I know that I just don't connect with you guys anymore.
I just know.
I am seriously trying to move on from what I heard tonight.
I don't appreciate it, and I don't want to have to deal with it.
I know the people I talk to didn't say it, but they still did.
Ya.
Life is hard, then you die.
But you can either go through it trying your hardest, or give up and let people trample you.
It's your choice.
As for me, I am going to try:)
Now time to go and face my so-called "friends" at UCAS......:P
But hey, It's almost summer right? :)

tears are words the heart can't say

Why?
Why on earth do some people seriously not have hearts?

some times I wish it was this easy.
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If it was, the world would be a simpler place.
It is time for story time:

once upon a time there was a girl. she went to a great school where she met great people and she loved them. Then one day she had to leave them to find new friends. It was hard at first but she tried to stay close with her past friends. she thought she was doing pretty good with keeping up with them. she put things together and went to parties that they were hosting. then when guys and girls started to get mixed up, things got complicated. she had to say things to guys that she would never had wanted to say. she was slowing turning the heat up on the boiler. then one night when these friends were bored, they called people trying to convince them to hang out. and thats when it happened. a guy turned into a sudden jerk and called the girl on things she was saying. the girl apologized quickly and ended the conversation quickly as well. it had ruined her whole mood for the rest of the night. she went off by herself thinking about all of the things she had done recently, only to find negative. as she was on her way home from being "out with the guys", she decided to get up the courage to apologize to *certain* people. she didn't want to though, because it was 10:30, but she was feeling terrible. she dialed the number of the person she intended to call and was shocked to find the person awake (she had been expecting voice mail). to her horror, they sounded even more angry than before. when she started in on her apology she could tell that the person was rolling their eyes. their only response was, "oh, it's fine. don't worry about it. it was nothing. whatever." it was said in one of the rudest fashions. the girl quickly hung up and began to cry. how could someone be so heartless and knock someone down who had enough courage to do something as hard as that. the girl then decided she would not talk this person for the next while and let them live in their life of saddness. until she has enough courage to confront the person again.

If you are ever put into a situation like this, do not be a jerk.
You have no idea how hard it is for a person to apologize to another.

It is human nature to feel like you are always right.

You have to get past your pride and accept it.

Don't ever make a person cry over an apology that you didn't accept.

It is not good for either of you.

I don't care if they wake you up in the middle of the night,

accept it and don't question it.

And especially DON'T throw it back in their face.

Thank you.

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And this is how I basically feel at this point.

prom

Oh,
ain't it lovely.
It is that wonderful time of year again.
Girls becoming giddy around their friends when that CERTIAN boy walks by,
boys scratching their heads, coming up with ideas to ask girls with.
Later girls are surprised to find little goodies in their lockers.
Excited they run and tell their friends.
Now they have to decide between not only two but THREE different boys.
...
Oh the joys of Prom season.
don't ya just love it.
I know I don't;)
Silly boys:):):)

P.S.

P.S.

I HATE boys:)

Enough said in my mind.

Can't they all just like NOT be jerks.

or well,

like NOT get into dumb relationships and STILL

sit there and FLIRT with us.

Thanks boys.

I really don't like you.

I just need a break and I want to punch certain boys.

Yep.

Thanks.

WHOOSH.

BOYS ARE NOW........

GONE.

[if only it were that easy......]

Self-Respect, Racism, Random.

Ok. One day I am going to do this:)



For a dance possibly??

Who's in?

Yessssss:):):):):):):):)

"A 50- something year old white woman arrived at her seat on a crowded flight and immediately didn't want the seat. The seat was next to a black man. Disgusted, the woman immediately summoned the flight attendant and demanded a new seat. The woman said "I cannot sit here next to this black man." The fight attendant said "Let me see if I can find another seat." After checking, the flight attendant returned and stated "Ma'am, there are no more seats in economy, but I will check with the captain and see if there is something in first class." About 10 minutes went by and the flight attendant returned and stated "The captain has confirmed that there are no more seats in economy, but there is one in first class. It is our company policy to never move a person from economy to first class, but being that it would be some sort of scandal to force a person to sit next to an UNPLEASANT person, the captain agreed to make the switch to first class." Before the woman could say anything, the attendant gestured to the black man and said, "Therefore sir, if you would so kindly retrieve your personal items, we would like to move you to the comfort of first class as the captain doesn't want you to sit next to an unpleasant person." Passengers in the seats nearby began to applause while some gave a standing ovation."

Pretty great huh?

Ya, I find random things on Facebook sometimes:)

Oh yes.

To ALL girls out there:

STOP worrying about your body.

And Stop reading stupid "glamour" magezines.

I was sitting on the bus one day and I saw an over weight woman,

She was reading the cosmopolition magezine.

Guess what was on the front?

Yep. This is the EXACT cover.

Do you know what I thought?

"Why on earth would you spend your time reading about/looking at things that make you feel bad?"

Granted I don't know her situation,

But c'mon.

Who really feels good about reading those things?????

No one last time I checked.

C'mon.

Please don't.

We are ALL daughter of a King.

Do you really think He would want us to be doing this to ourselves?

No.

We all struggle with it.

I do A TON!!!!

Trust me.

But we need to look past what the world wants us to see.

Thanks:)

Loves ya!!!!

Oh yes.

Certain BOYS just need to move on and get it over with.

Many who know a CERTIAN girls drama would know.

He just needs to get it over with.

No more time for waiting.

Just rip the band-aid off. No need to keep it on.

{{ew. kinda a gross analogy}}

But seriously!! We talked about it Thursday.

And guess what.

You STILL haven't done it.

Bah Humbug!!!!

Oh yes,

 and another side note for boys,

PLEASE don't lead girls on.

We take things more seriously than you realize,

so when you give us false hope,

We DON'T appreciate it!!

Thanks.

drama...

Misunderstood.

Misinterpreted.

Feelings hurt,

No one really knowing the truth.

What to think.

What to do.

Oh well,

There really is nothing you can do at this point.

Hopefully the person causing the drama will realize it,

and make it better.

If not,

I'll still be praying that they will.

To: Roo

Another one, but to Roo this time.

Roo is being a Roo,

letting his Hormones kick in.

Taking things a little too deeply,

and he can never seem to learn

When to just let go and be happy.

But he is still good.;)

He has met one amazing girl

Who actually likes him;);)

He went through this phase

Where he was happy.

He smiled the whole day.

It was partly my fault that this happened.

I sorta helped/ruined his life...

I made him do something.

Something I kinda regret,

But his happiness will last hopefully.

He WON'T go back into his THING,

And he will be a happy soul Again.

I hope that he actually reads this.

STOP!;)