FAIL:)

So, I have obviously failed with my whole gratitude thing:)
I tried, but Life just got in the way...and here I am like 3 months (ish) later...
things have been quite interesting recently,
Friendships and relationships have changed,
both for good and bad.
But nonetheless, life must go on.
I am currently working on homework because my classes require a lot of me...even thought I am a silly girl only taking 9 credits and working full time and I still can't keep up...
I am trying really hard to do my homework of course because I am writing on my blog, and I am watching movies all night...yay:)

Anywho, thanks for your time:)

Prom 2014

So Prom was yesterday...:)
It was pretty fun:), not going to lie.
Our day was spent meeting up at the Tulip Festival,
Then walking around for a couple of hours,
looking at all of the perdy flowers and the inconsiderate fish!
Then Josh Johnson pulled out a HUGE thing of sandwiches and Myron had Soda,
We then sat in the shade and feasted on our picnic while enjoying the ambiance of flowers.
Me and Ryan stayed a little bit longer to talk, and by doing so: We got sunburned:P

Later after hair, make-up, and dress alterations (so annoying),
We made it to Myron's house for dinner:)
We chilled there for awhile waiting for 8 o'clock to roll around so we could leave
[[because we are obviously not going to show up on time:)]]

Slowly we made it to the dance and danced our little hearts out:)
Ok, well not really...we sat on the side and "people-watched" a whole lot and really only danced the slow songs haha.
But it was fun nonetheless.

Then after the dance we went to my house and talked for a long time.
Twas a lovely night, with a lovely boy:)

Here are some pictures:

Just a silly picture of me and my dress:)

Me putting the flower-thingy on Ryan

A nice, normal picture

Me giving my mom attitude for taking so many pictures (sorry about the "over-editing")

Ironic Isn't It?

Ironic how we complain about something,
Expecting it to change, but knowing it can't,
Then when it doesn't change,
We get upset and start complaining about it again.

It seems to be a never ending cycle of stupidity.
Awesome.

Meh.

I give up:)
Haha. Mmm.
Once again, Yes? No? Maybe?
We will see how this goes sometimes soon:)

Yes? No? Maybe?

Ugh.
Stress:

• Friends
• School
• Family
• Church
• Work

Not Stress (sometimes):

• Coding
• Painting
• Cleaning
• Sleeping
• Listening to Music

Lots of decisions to make this semester.

Switch jobs? Which school?

Forgive that person? Don't?

Pretend smile or show how I feel?

Sleep or Study?

Be mad or cry instead?

Give up or keep trying?

Care or turn into a heartless monster (more than I already am)?

 ^^Just to be a drama queen for a small moment:)

Hmm.

Sometimes you just have to cry.

No matter how hard you try not to,

it just happens.

Smiling and being charismatic can be overwhelming.

But it's hard to cry when you have the reputation of being happy.

Even when you only smile 80% of the time, people ask.

People treat you differently. They are: nicer, kinder, sympathetic, concerned.

Well, sometimes you don't want that. Sometimes you just want to be alone.

And since when have they actually cared?!

They are only kind when they feel something bad has happened.

You get to the point where you get up in the morning, look in the mirror and say,

"Who am I going to be today? My true feelings, or the person they expect me to be?"

I know what I want, but I don't know how to do it.

You see: There is this....guy....

Well, multiple guys.

All having their differences, all being unique in their own way.

I've gotten....wrapped up in some of them....

Dang do you start regretting things.

If you really know me, you will agree that I am kinda stupid.

I get involved in things and I screw things up and I make things wrong.

I stay up late thinking at night.

Just thinking.

Reminiscing if you will on the past.

I will think so much and ruin everything.

It sucks.

I hate it.

But life goes on and so must I.

I may be lost and confused and guilty and regretful, but that's me... 

Yes....Yes I Do

School is now OFFICIALLY OUT.
Booyah.
My math class ended being curved so my C turned into a C+!!
I got to eat scones and play Irish Twister with the best people today!
[what a way to end a school year!]
I gotta hang out with My Senior Brother, we watched iRobot,
But then he left so I hung out with Manuel, Alex, and Randy!
Then these 4 13-14 year old boys were checking me out and taking pictures of me on the bus awkwardly.
AND I finally got my shifts figured out for work and by the end of this week and next week,
(without taxes being deducted) I will have received $221.
I feel quite happy at the moment:)
Today is just....One of those days:)

hectic day.

At lunch James offered to get me In 'n Out burger, 'cause I've never had it before.

Well. Woke up this morning remembering that I had a project in Physics due.
Luckily I had gotten up at 5:30 to do my hair, so I got out of bed and went to Fresh Market.
At 6 am.You'd be surprised how many people were shopping that early!!
But they didn't have my drink so I went to Heart's instead
and I bought a Mountain Dew Voltage. ((Yummy!!))
And I got my egg all prepared so after I was done drinking it, I could launch it.
But I slept in too late [7:20 to be exact] and I almost missed my bus as usual.
And once I got to school we watched a sad Holocaust movie then my egg cracked...:(
And the container holding the egg broke....which is a bad thing.
Anywho. Things got better after that.
But before he left I just tagged along and sluffed my 4th period class:) Muahaha.
He was sweet and bought me a Burger and a Shake:)
We called it our "Unofficial Date".
Then on the bus.......haha........
Amanda got mad at me so she hit my nose pretty hard and I have always had a sensitive nose so...
I got a bloody nose right at the beginning of the bus ride!!
No one had tissues or anything and when I used a tampon....it started to go down my throat :P!!
So I used my jacket....It got EVERYWHERE!!! and everyone was laughing at me!!
But it ended right before the bus pulled up.
But It was ALL over my face....:( so once again people were laughing.
And I needed to pick food up for Shelby anyway, so Tressa came with me and she watched the workers reaction when they saw all of the blood on my face:) It was Priceless!
then made a cake, Ate food, went to a baseball game, Just the Usual:)
Now I am procrastinating homework that I need to do.
Aren't I clever?
Plus I'm texting Riley and Git....Ya I sorta fail at this Homework thing:)
Oh well:)
G'night!!
I gotta go do homework now :P

just what I needed

Just when you feel like you absolutely hate the world,
something great can happen.
I was texting my friend last night when he asked me,
"Do you want to call and read scriptures with me?"
So of course I did.
We read Luke 4 together.
Then we continued to talk about spiritual experiences together and he told me about his conversion story until midnight.
He is such a doll!
But I feel bad because he had to wake up at 4:30 this morning.....
But he completely turned my night around.
I think more guys should be like that. Just saying:)
I think I am going to try to do that with people more often.
I am going to ask people if they would like to read the scriptures with me over the phone.
Because there is always a first for everything.
If you ever want to read with me, Just text me:)
It really does make a difference, so you should try it.
Tis all.
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Haha, now I am in Physics on the computer....
Dumb CRT testing.
Oh well, I got Pandora going and I am writing on my blog, what could be better?
Happy Testing month!!

I know, I know, I know

I know.
You don't need to tell me twice.
I know I don't like talking to people.
I know that I can get on your nerves when I don't want to do what you do.
I know that I just don't connect with you guys anymore.
I just know.
I am seriously trying to move on from what I heard tonight.
I don't appreciate it, and I don't want to have to deal with it.
I know the people I talk to didn't say it, but they still did.
Ya.
Life is hard, then you die.
But you can either go through it trying your hardest, or give up and let people trample you.
It's your choice.
As for me, I am going to try:)
Now time to go and face my so-called "friends" at UCAS......:P
But hey, It's almost summer right? :)

“We are all failures- at least the best of us are.”

What Matters Most.
This Woman hit it dead on.
I love this girl so much:)
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I am at school once again. I got done with that dumb English testing in 20 minutes.
Wow. It was so short and quite easy.
You all know. You have to take it too.
So this weekend has really gotten me thinking.
Not like a deep, this-is-going-to-change-my-life kind of thinking,
Just the usual. hmm-why-didn't-I-think-of-this-before type of thinking.
WHY DOES ANYTHING MATTER?!
Crushes move away or move on,
Some friends you will lose,
School is an absolute bore,
And Cell phones can be a BIG waste of time.
I was texting one of my friends, Fish. (nickname)
and I was asking him why he texts people.
He replied with a simple, "Because I like to have conversations."
In the back of my head I was thinking,
What the crap. If you want to have a conversation, TALK to them.
He simply texts a bunch of people to feel cool.
You don't have to base your life off of how many people you text and talk to.
It is SO not worth it.
You are worth so much more than the people that you talk to.
Same thing with friends.
Sure they are great in the moment but if you don't create bonds beyond texting,
You will never survive past high school.
It's just a fact of life.
Texting just drives me up the wall.
And since I got Shelby's old phone and it takes me forever to text on it,
I haven't been texting as much and let me tell you that it has saved me so much time.
I have been able to do so much more.
No back to the point of this post.
We are all just living our lives through high school pretending that everything is super Dandy,
When in most of our realities, IT'S NOT.
And Why poeple make such a big deal out of drama.....No Idea.
Ya, not I'm just rambling.
Hope you have a good day.
And life does matter, but you have to make sure you focus your time on your prioritys, not drama and wasteful things. Because frankly, it's not worth it.
That is all.

when nothing goes right....go left

is it just me or does it seem like lately nothing has been going right?!

BAH HUMBUG!!!

So, I officially Lost, lost with a capital L, my Cell Phone.

[which includes all of the pictures I didn't put on the computer, contacts, sounds, everything]

Stupid girl pockets!! You are never deep enough to keep things safe.

And then you find out that all of these people you talk to during school are complete JERKS.

Stupid, stupid, stupid.

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But on the brightside....I got new glasses:):):)

pretty cute huh? haha:)

ya, what a dork of a face:)

Hehe, Well that is my good news!!

Oh yes and I most likely have a job for the summer!!

Come to me money, I WANT you!!!

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Oh yes, and an update about my post yesterday.

Things are better. I talked to that person today.

Things aren't 100%, but they are better than what they were.

I just need to learn how to hold my tongue.

Never again will I say that stuff.

Now wheres a shock collar when I need one;)

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AND one more thing.

Going on Walks at Highland Glenn Park is one of the best adventures ever.

Along with feeding the ducks and watching the sunset.

It is always a good way to release that terrible stress from the day.

It is one of the best things I have decided to do lately.

Cute huh:)

So if you are a very deprived child, and have never fed the ducks...

Go and do it this instant.

It may change your life:):):) Well actually, not really but who cares? Have a good day.

All Things Must Come to an End.

Sometimes I think my friends are just obsessed.
**cough cough** (you know who you are woman:))
Haha. She makes my day a lot though:)
Oh yes. Who wants to have an Anti-Prom party with me:):):):)
Nothing against prom but who really wants to sit at home and be sad that they didn't get asked?
NOT ME!!!!!
We shall have a good ol' grand time!!
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Oh yes.
Saturday was good.
Had my Seven Peaks inteview....
Kinda strange,
It was a group interview......:S
 I hope I did ok, I really kinda want this job!!
And then later Saturday,
Titanic happened. We watched that very scary movie.
Still It was good.
Now I just have to do my homework for tomorrow.
I am such the procrastinator. :):):):)

Utah County Academy of Sciences

Once upon a time,

There was this school.

UCAS.

It had one stinky hall,

150 sophmores,

150 juniors,

150 seniors.

No biggy.

--Oh wait!

They are ALL nerds:)

If you sat in our classes,

You would truely understand the meaning of what a Nerd is.

We prove a lot of the stereotypes.

We talk about video games,

Movies,

Politics,

comics,

EVERYTHING NERDY!!!

But,

 You just gotta love us.

We still got personality,

style,

Friends,

LIVES,

Problems,

but we got each other.

You basically know most of the kids at school,

everyone is nice,

no cliques,

not as much drama,

not as many rude people.

It's great.

I love it.

I wish all schools were like this one:):):):)
These are also some of my adventures there:
UCAS

AHH

SUCH an eventful day.

I almost missed the bus,

giving me a good excuse to have an adventerous drive:)

I had like....5 people want to sit by me today in English:)

{Which isn't bad for my self-esteem:)}

And I gotta have those yummy mini hot dog things!!

such a good day:)

Wuv you:)

Those Good Moments:)

I love those good moments in your life.

Repairing a broken friendship,

talking to an old friend,

actually TALKING to certain people,

When people understand you,

clearing up rumors,

hanging out but not really doing anything,

Those good moments:)

I bet we can all relate, right?

Mmhmm.

They are just the best:)

Oh yes,

Thursday night,

So much FUN!

Watching all of the amazing guards,

re-living/thinking of good memories,

making memories,

hmmmm......just more good moments:)

Oh yes,

Anna Gibb introduced me to this wonderful band.

One Direction.

I decided to listen to some of their songs today!

And this is by far my favorite song that I listened to:

Oh, these boys:)

Anywho!

Loves ya!

What to do......

Guess what.

It is a Saturday night and I got NOTHING to do!!

I feel special.

A lot of people are at guard,

Amanda is busy,

and Ugh.

Oh well.

That's what I get I guess for being me:)

Sitting at home.

All alone:)

Fun fun fun!!

Just kidding.

I am going out later with my schwester:)

She tis a good one.

Oh yes.

Certain BOYS just need to move on and get it over with.

Many who know a CERTIAN girls drama would know.

He just needs to get it over with.

No more time for waiting.

Just rip the band-aid off. No need to keep it on.

{{ew. kinda a gross analogy}}

But seriously!! We talked about it Thursday.

And guess what.

You STILL haven't done it.

Bah Humbug!!!!

Oh yes,

 and another side note for boys,

PLEASE don't lead girls on.

We take things more seriously than you realize,

so when you give us false hope,

We DON'T appreciate it!!

Thanks.

Boys. Mormons. Good Stuff.

Ok!!!!

This is SOOOOO cool!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And it is SO true!!!!!!!!

I wish though....Truely do......

Now watch it.

I really wish guys could be this good.

But alas,

They aren't.....:(

Ten Ways To Get Girls to Like You

Oh baby!!!!

This is SO true!!!

Wow.

Lots of good videos!!!

Oh ya!

Guess what.

I *almost* got hit with a snowball today......

Zac was going to hit ME first,

But then Eric came up right next to me and started talking to me,

So he hit Eric instead, but then told me to go back and walk again

--just do he could hit me!!!!!!

Wow,

Nice boys huh??!!

But they are pretty spiffy too.

You gotta love UCAS:):):):)

My EFY friend posted this:

In the Bible it says, "Thou shalt not fear 365 times."

Each time is a reminder from Heavenly Father to live everyday fearless :)

AWW:) I like it:)

Oh yes,

So my adventures of yesterday...

My original plan was to take my normal 4:40 bus home,

So I could make it to Tanner and Sam's wrestling match.

But I was trying to be nice..

(Plus I was talking to Cameron)

And I waited for Kelton because we ride the same bus.

But you see,

In order to get from UCAS to the bus stop you need about 10ish minutes.

Well, We didn't end up leaving UCAS till about 4:30.

We were walking so fast!!

And right as we were almost to our bus stop,

The dear 811 bus was pulling away......

So, we ran and hopped on the 830 to catch the 850 later!

[And we grabbed all these pamphlet thingys telling the bus schedule]

We missed the 850,

but the next thing we know another 811 is pulling up!!

Huzzah!

We hopped on and we started playing Truth or Dare?

{Such an odd game to play....}

And we didn't end up getting to my bus stop till 5:45ish instead of the usual 5:10ish.

So I ran to my car in the rain and I sped over to the high school.

Sadly, I missed seeing Tanner wrestle:(

But Sabrina, Erik, and Breanne were there!!

So we finished watching JV,

When Erin and Maddie showed up!!

And Taylie too!!

It was just a party!

Then we all went over to JCW's and ate delicious Ice Cream as it was cold outside.

Then we came back and Watched Sam wrestle!!

Sadly.........he got pinned in 15 seconds:(:(:(:(

He was SO mad.....

But it was some adventure!!!

Thanks guys!!

I miss AF a ton.....

But thanks for still being nice to be ol' jerk like me:)

{Oh yes, Thanks Erik for feeding me a PB & J Sandwich.

I will repay you 5 fold!!}