Finals...Gah.

So...finals are coming up....fast...
Papers keep coming.
Stress keeps building.
Anger keeps boiling inside.
Sleep keeps disappearing.
Yay...

Winter Formal #2

I got asked this past week to the dance:)

Mr. Shawn Gubler asked me using this:

I thought it was clever.

They actually didn't put it on my car because I had left school already,

But Ryan brought it to me later Thursday night.

That was nice because I was able to talk with him.

Me and him haven't talked for such a long time.

Due to schedule conflicts and fear of what would happen if we did.

I was honestly shocked he talked with me...

But hey, I'm not complaining:) He's pretty nifty!

Speaking of nifty people:

My friends are the bestest friends ever:)

Tis all the details I shall give, but just know that they are the BEST:)

Oh.....and I know I can be a jerk at times...but hurting boys is not something I enjoy...

But why should I care what they think about me?

I already know that they dislike me.

I can see the looks they give me.

The glances, stares, and glares.

I don't mind the looks as much,

But when you start twisting my words and spreading crap,

that's when I start to get annoyed on the inside...

Not like I would do anything anyway.

I don't want to make it any worse :P

That's my rant about stupidity in girls.

Hmm.

Sometimes you just have to cry.

No matter how hard you try not to,

it just happens.

Smiling and being charismatic can be overwhelming.

But it's hard to cry when you have the reputation of being happy.

Even when you only smile 80% of the time, people ask.

People treat you differently. They are: nicer, kinder, sympathetic, concerned.

Well, sometimes you don't want that. Sometimes you just want to be alone.

And since when have they actually cared?!

They are only kind when they feel something bad has happened.

You get to the point where you get up in the morning, look in the mirror and say,

"Who am I going to be today? My true feelings, or the person they expect me to be?"

I know what I want, but I don't know how to do it.

You see: There is this....guy....

Well, multiple guys.

All having their differences, all being unique in their own way.

I've gotten....wrapped up in some of them....

Dang do you start regretting things.

If you really know me, you will agree that I am kinda stupid.

I get involved in things and I screw things up and I make things wrong.

I stay up late thinking at night.

Just thinking.

Reminiscing if you will on the past.

I will think so much and ruin everything.

It sucks.

I hate it.

But life goes on and so must I.

I may be lost and confused and guilty and regretful, but that's me... 

last day.

One more day till Picnik closes for good:(
That is super depressing.....
I loved picnik.
I used it a lot when I was bored or if I wanted to touch up a picuture.
Now I have to use google plus.
Dumb.
I know.
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Today's adventure:
I totally missed both of the buses today on the way to school.
I forgot to give Ethan his breakfast so when I went to go give it to him I took too long.
Darn.
So I had to drive myself to school.
I was only 25 minutes late to my first class.
Not bad right?
Well yes very bad especially when your classes are only 53 minutes long.
But when I walked in they were all laughing cause they were making up stories as to where I was.
They said I invested my money into someplace to get doubles....Whatever that means??
But it was nice 'cause when it was time to come home I got home SO much quicker than I normally do.
No need to wait for the bus today!!
And it was nice 'cause I took Ashley and Tressa along too,
Which they appreciated:)
It was quite an adventure...
haha, just 'cause I was yelling super loud in my car because this dumb train wouldn't move!!!
It stayed right in the way of the road for at least 5 minutes!!!!
SO annoying.
But eh, Whatever:):)

No One Wants It.

Oh my goodness.

Cried pretty hard:(

You can't NOT cry.

So sad.

Anyway....

Oh dear.....



The decisions we make in life not only affect you,

but affect those around you.

When making a life changing decision,

make sure you take in account EVERYONE in your life.

Not just the ones in the immediate decision.

Think of all of the gospel standards,

Think of your value to God,

Think of it ALL.

Remember that it is your life.

But,

Remember who gave it to you.

1 Nephi 16:2

 And it came to pass that I said unto them that I knew that I had spoken hard things against the wicked, according to the truth; and the righteous have I justified, and testified that they should be lifted up at the last day; wherefore, the guilty taketh the truth to be hard, for it cutteth them to the very center.

Yup.

That tis all.

Awkward?

So I was texting Roo,

[for those of you who know who that is]

and They were talking about creepy concepts so I said:

Me: Santa Claus is a weird concept.

 Just think about it, a man sneaks into your house, eats your food,

and he knows when you are asleep and awake

and if you've been bad or good....CREEPY!
Other person that I was talking to:

And that's why he says ho, ho, ho because he reads off the naughty list ;)Wow.

Awkward.

I was also on the bus when they sent that to me,

And I busted out laughing and I got lots of weird stares....

Ya.

AWKWARD!!

just when you think life is perfect...

Uhm.

Drama from family?

Some.

How is my heart taking it?

Painfully.

Why does it have to happen to them?

They are too sweet of a person to be getting curious!

If only they would break off something.

Even though that something really grows on you.

It is ruining their life!

Well,

On another note,

I got presented to my Ward today as being a laurel.

And my Bishop embarrassed me:)

but he is still good:)

seminary thought from Brother Hales...

We can all agree that girls require Time and Money

Girls = Time x Money

"Time is Money"

Time = Money

Girls = Money x Money = Money^2

"Money is the root of all evil"

Money = square root of evil

Girls = (square root of evil)^2

Girls = evil

Ya, too bad blogger doesn't let you do math terms...:(

Oh well:)

So then Bethany thought of this one:

We can all agree that guys have no thought process

Guys = no thought process

Not letting virtue garnish thy thoughts unceasingly = bad

bad = (evil)^2

Guys = (evil)^2

Guys = double evil!

Ya, it was a good lesson:):)