Ironic Isn't It?

Ironic how we complain about something,
Expecting it to change, but knowing it can't,
Then when it doesn't change,
We get upset and start complaining about it again.

It seems to be a never ending cycle of stupidity.
Awesome.

Painting:)

I've been enjoying myself the past few weeks:)

I am not as amazing as you would think.

I'm one of those dumb, lame people who trace then paint.

But on the Wall-E and Eve one, I actually didn't trace as much:)

Most of it was free hand:)

So I'm slowly working on things:)

Such An Annoyance

This is the song that beat out "Let It Go" in the Golden Globe Awards

I actually kinda like this song, it's catchy:)

On another note.

School: blech. blech. blech.

Friends: erm...uh...

Work: what a party and nuisance.

Family: couldn't be better:)

Just life is full of annoyances...Ugh.

Just many, many things and thoughts...

Well...

These days are just blending together...
Today is Wednesday right?
Wow. Crazy!
I feel bad. I forgot to give Beth back her toy:(
Oh ya.
Elisha Graduated today:)
But I had to work.....and I missed it:(
But she is at Boondocks partying it up right now!!
I hope she has a fun time:)
I love my schwester:)

tears are words the heart can't say

Why?
Why on earth do some people seriously not have hearts?

some times I wish it was this easy.
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If it was, the world would be a simpler place.
It is time for story time:

once upon a time there was a girl. she went to a great school where she met great people and she loved them. Then one day she had to leave them to find new friends. It was hard at first but she tried to stay close with her past friends. she thought she was doing pretty good with keeping up with them. she put things together and went to parties that they were hosting. then when guys and girls started to get mixed up, things got complicated. she had to say things to guys that she would never had wanted to say. she was slowing turning the heat up on the boiler. then one night when these friends were bored, they called people trying to convince them to hang out. and thats when it happened. a guy turned into a sudden jerk and called the girl on things she was saying. the girl apologized quickly and ended the conversation quickly as well. it had ruined her whole mood for the rest of the night. she went off by herself thinking about all of the things she had done recently, only to find negative. as she was on her way home from being "out with the guys", she decided to get up the courage to apologize to *certain* people. she didn't want to though, because it was 10:30, but she was feeling terrible. she dialed the number of the person she intended to call and was shocked to find the person awake (she had been expecting voice mail). to her horror, they sounded even more angry than before. when she started in on her apology she could tell that the person was rolling their eyes. their only response was, "oh, it's fine. don't worry about it. it was nothing. whatever." it was said in one of the rudest fashions. the girl quickly hung up and began to cry. how could someone be so heartless and knock someone down who had enough courage to do something as hard as that. the girl then decided she would not talk this person for the next while and let them live in their life of saddness. until she has enough courage to confront the person again.

If you are ever put into a situation like this, do not be a jerk.
You have no idea how hard it is for a person to apologize to another.

It is human nature to feel like you are always right.

You have to get past your pride and accept it.

Don't ever make a person cry over an apology that you didn't accept.

It is not good for either of you.

I don't care if they wake you up in the middle of the night,

accept it and don't question it.

And especially DON'T throw it back in their face.

Thank you.

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And this is how I basically feel at this point.

you know you're a teenager when you...

have random mood swings.
blow up over tiny things.
get depressed over nothing.
feel that the world hates you.
feel that you have no friends, but then the next day you do.
think no one likes you.
don't feel important.
feel like you are people's "second choice".
want to murder someone.
blame everything on hormones.
just don't care, but REALLY you do.
do the randomest things with no care in the world of how stupid people may think you are.
try so hard to get a job and end up working fast food.
dance like no one's watching.
HATE boys, but then love them.
want to go on dates, but are too lazy to do anything.
don't do your homework and surf the web instead.
have an empty wallet.
earn money by mowing lawns.
want to go shopping--^even though you are broke.
text for the sake of texting.
go on long walks and talk with your best friend.

Plus soo many other things.
Darn teenageritis.
I don't want to be a teenager, but I do, but I don't.
It's too hard to decide.
I just want to graduate and actually begin my life.

prom

Oh,
ain't it lovely.
It is that wonderful time of year again.
Girls becoming giddy around their friends when that CERTIAN boy walks by,
boys scratching their heads, coming up with ideas to ask girls with.
Later girls are surprised to find little goodies in their lockers.
Excited they run and tell their friends.
Now they have to decide between not only two but THREE different boys.
...
Oh the joys of Prom season.
don't ya just love it.
I know I don't;)
Silly boys:):):)

Realization

Haha.

I'm a loser sometimes:):):):)

Just sayin;)

I really don't have any inspirational, thought provoking message to share.

I just felt like posting something stupid:):):)

Now look at this pretty sunset longingly:)



P.S.

P.S.

I HATE boys:)

Enough said in my mind.

Can't they all just like NOT be jerks.

or well,

like NOT get into dumb relationships and STILL

sit there and FLIRT with us.

Thanks boys.

I really don't like you.

I just need a break and I want to punch certain boys.

Yep.

Thanks.

WHOOSH.

BOYS ARE NOW........

GONE.

[if only it were that easy......]

Oh my.....

Sweetness By Stephen Dunn

 

Just when it has seemed I couldn’t bear   

   one more friend   

waking with a tumor, one more maniac   

with a perfect reason, often a sweetness   

   has come   

and changed nothing in the world   

except the way I stumbled through it,   

   for a while lost   

in the ignorance of loving   

someone or something, the world shrunk   

   to mouth-size,   

hand-size, and never seeming small.   

I acknowledge there is no sweetness   

   that doesn’t leave a stain,   

no sweetness that’s ever sufficiently sweet ....   

Tonight a friend called to say his lover   

   was killed in a car   

he was driving. His voice was low   

and guttural, he repeated what he needed   

   to repeat, and I repeated   

the one or two words we have for such grief   

until we were speaking only in tones.   

   Often a sweetness comes   

as if on loan, stays just long enough   

to make sense of what it means to be alive,   

   then returns to its dark   

source. As for me, I don’t care   

where it’s been, or what bitter road   

   it’s traveled   

to come so far, to taste so good.

Isn't that the truth?

That is the poem I had to memorize for English.....

So true about a lot of our lives huh?

(By the way, if you didn't figure it out--it took me a few times to figure it out--the sweetness is the good things that happen in your life)

Hm.

People just make STUPID decisions.....

Just flat out stupid.

Why they decide to?

No one but them will know.

Argh.

Dumb.

Recently I've Been Thinking

If everyday could be a Friday,

Man would life be fun.

No homework,

No school,

Just you and whatever you want to do.

I have also decided that boys are just dumb.

They are too chickent to ask girls on dates.

Here are a lot of girls with so much potential for being fun,

yet you deny them the opportunity to show you who they really are.

Stupid boys.

Ask Girls on dates.

Thanks.

And Valentines Day is going to suck again this year.

I hate Single's Awareness day.

I have been single and will stay single probably for a while.

But no,

When you go to school you are reminded how "obscure" you are.

You see all of these lovey-dovey couples everywhere.

They get each other presents,

Hold each other's hands,

Kiss occassionally,

All that Jazz.

Awkward.

But the rest of us are just too cool to have boyfriends/girlfriends right now.

Yep.

That's the truth.

Well have a happy single's awareness day!!

{{unless you're NOT single;)}}

Oh yes.

Certain BOYS just need to move on and get it over with.

Many who know a CERTIAN girls drama would know.

He just needs to get it over with.

No more time for waiting.

Just rip the band-aid off. No need to keep it on.

{{ew. kinda a gross analogy}}

But seriously!! We talked about it Thursday.

And guess what.

You STILL haven't done it.

Bah Humbug!!!!

Oh yes,

 and another side note for boys,

PLEASE don't lead girls on.

We take things more seriously than you realize,

so when you give us false hope,

We DON'T appreciate it!!

Thanks.

Awkward?

So I was texting Roo,

[for those of you who know who that is]

and They were talking about creepy concepts so I said:

Me: Santa Claus is a weird concept.

 Just think about it, a man sneaks into your house, eats your food,

and he knows when you are asleep and awake

and if you've been bad or good....CREEPY!
Other person that I was talking to:

And that's why he says ho, ho, ho because he reads off the naughty list ;)Wow.

Awkward.

I was also on the bus when they sent that to me,

And I busted out laughing and I got lots of weird stares....

Ya.

AWKWARD!!

Fall Break

So far so good:)

Last night I went to this BYU chemistry show with

Sabrina, Jess, Bradan, and Jordan.

And guess who we run into while we are there?!

None other than Tanner Durfee!

it was pretty grand:)

Then we went back to Jessica's and played Wii

and watched the Little Rascals:)

Tonight its Haunted Forest with friends,

and tomorrow Erin and Arianna's birthday party:)

AHH this weekend is gonna be pretty grand.

Plus Tanner might go to the mall with Sabrina and I on Saturday!

To: Jordan Bayley.

Yes Jordan Bayley,

I am writing you a lovely note on my blog

You can't read it till Monday though when I see you.

Well, This is specifically to you:) Enjoy

I know I am a very stupid downer,

You read all of my depressing notes,

But now I am just saying,

Thank you.

When you told me today that you were annoyed,

You kinda got me thinking a tad.

I don't hate UCAS people.

I honestly just don't hate anyone.

I blame my Hormones;)

You of anyone should understand girls the most.

We are stupid and emotional.

I guess I am just in the habit of being a pessimist,

and I have a really hard time putting it aside on certain occasions

But really thank you for being so grand.

And I know Kaitlin basically Hates your guts,

But your really not that bad of a guy

So don't let her get to you.

That's just who she is and you can't change her.

From now on If I become all stupid again,

You can do whatever you want to set me straight.

Anything.

Yep, That's all:)

Thank you so much;)

Sincerely,

The stupid emotional girl who needs to get a grip on reality.