Yes, sadly all the things I am thinking about at the moment.
I love my friends and all,
but sometimes you just want to
hurt them....
It is very painful to even think that.
I really do care about my friends,
and every day I think what my life would be like if they weren't there,
and every day I think what it would be like if I still went to AF,
but it usually always comes up to things I HATE thinking about.
I have recently gotten rid of a huge burden in my life.
This burden has actually been a person.
I hate to sound rude,
but ever since I stopped talking to this person,
I feel so much happier and less sad.
They were constantly bringing me down
and I would cry over them quite a lot
because I didn't know what to do for them.
This person has also led me to write this:
***I Sydney Marie Ward, on this beautiful Thursday morning of November 3, do make a promise to myself that I WILL NOT get a boyfriend until I graduate high school in the year of 2014. By making this decision, I will still date my peers and enjoy my high school years with lots of friendships instead of RELATIONSHIPS.***
Edmond Tanner Durfee has been my *motivation* and *inspiration* for me to make this decision. If he can do it, I can do it. Due to a conversation we had back in August-September.
Even if he caves and gets into a relationship, I will still stand strong in my decision.
I have been making this decision in my mind for a while now,
but this just makes it real.
So if I ever have the chance to while I am in high school,
I will have already made my mind up.
I am not saying anything bad to those who do have boyfriends or girlfriends,
I am just simply making this decison for myself.
Thank you:)