relationships.

Yes, sadly all the things I am thinking about at the moment.

I love my friends and all,

but sometimes you just want to

hurt them....

It is very painful to even think that.

I really do care about my friends,

and every day I think what my life would be like if they weren't there,

and every day I think what it would be like if I still went to AF,

but it usually always comes up to things I HATE thinking about.

I have recently gotten rid of a huge burden in my life.

This burden has actually been a person.

I hate to sound rude,

but ever since I stopped talking to this person,

I feel so much happier and less sad.

They were constantly bringing me down

and I would cry over them quite a lot

because I didn't know what to do for them.

This person has also led me to write this:

***I Sydney Marie Ward, on this beautiful Thursday morning of November 3, do make a promise to myself that I WILL NOT get a boyfriend until I graduate high school in the year of 2014. By making this decision, I will still date my peers and enjoy my high school years with lots of friendships instead of RELATIONSHIPS.***

Edmond Tanner Durfee has been my *motivation* and *inspiration* for me to make this decision. If he can do it, I can do it. Due to a conversation we had back in August-September.

Even if he caves and gets into a relationship, I will still stand strong in my decision.

I have been making this decision in my mind for a while now,

but this just makes it real.

So if I ever have the chance to while I am in high school,

I will have already made my mind up.

I am not saying anything bad to those who do have boyfriends or girlfriends,

I am just simply making this decison for myself.

Thank you:)